“When I see into the stars, it gets easier for me to understand most of the answers still out there, in the universe around us”.
I wake up everyday early in the morning, drink a large glass of water, watch some news, run for 10 minutes, get my breakfast, and head on to the clinic. I get there, get changed with clean clothes and it takes me around 5 minutes to get ready; I need to be as clean as possible. I do not wear a watch so do not need to be concerned about the time. Once I am ready, with my hair and shoes covered, and clean hands and face, I start my favorite part of the day: to go inside my embryology laboratory.
To be part of that, the place where amazing things happen, it makes me feel grateful for the opportunity of being there.
It was hard work though. Several years on the medical school, several years specializing in human reproduction, long working hours at fertility clinics in several places around the world, many hours of studying and reading new advances and research. Although I have not been a researcher publisher myself, it has been a pleasure to read new developments and achievements in the reproductive field. Everyone takes different paths. Mine was something else. To have spent long hours inside the embryology laboratories amazed by the perfection of life. I mean any life.
My mother has told me I used to be the curious one. Always admiring at things not many people were admired by. I loved nature, the sky and stars. I loved spending long hours contemplating at the night sky with my brothers. We used to ask ourselves how would it be to go out there, into the universe?.
What I did not know is that I was going to have part of the universe with me inside a laboratory where life starts at its most delicate and subtle way. When I see the embryos, which I like to call my embryos, I see the universe in its own expression of beauty and delicacy. It is possible to feel the enormous amount of energy located in one single place. The single expression of another universe we are not allowed to see while in the physical universe. I would like you to see that.
For those reasons, that is my favorite part of the day, to be inside that place.
When embryos are present they allowed me to see their beauty and perfection. Even when they are not that pretty, they look really pretty to me. We have a very strong connection and they let me appreciate their life, even for a single moment. My respect for them is huge. They deserve it. I know the place where they came from it must be pleasant and unique. For them to make the decision to come to this physical world, where they might suffer, feel pain, diseases, rejection, sadness; it is a hard and admirable decision. For that, I admire them. However, when I look into their future parents, and all the joy and happiness they will bring into their lives, I feel comforted. I know they will definitely be loved. Patients undergoing these treatments do so because they really want to have a child, and most of them will love them infinitely.
Today a lovely couple told me: “when we take our embryos after the embryo transfer, we would like you to know they are also yours” I told them: “yes, I know they are also mine. I was the first person they trusted”. I had them with me, and that is a huge responsibility. The universe allowed me to accomplish that, and do so with my almost utterly respect and gratitude.
I appreciate every moment of my day. I see them come and leave. I see them coming into this world for the first time, and also see some of them leaving back to that place in the universe where they came from. I do not know where, but it must be incredible. Because when they leave they are all right, even if they were in this physical universe for minutes, hours or days.
Thanks for letting me see, and thanks for allowing me to be part of it. For that I will always be grateful.